Well.. I slept like an angel last night... I crawled into bed at like 8pm.. and passed out.. I thought I'd just be taking a nap.. but nope.. I slept clear thru till like 9am this morning.. I called the job placement service.. and the they were rude.. No jobs.. but rude.. Like I was bothering them or something. doodieheads.

Temp agencies suck. I guess you'd expect that.. more temporary on your part than theirs..

So.. Anywho..

I spent a large part of this morning working on my poetry site.. I posted about 400 poems on there.. and I'm only about halfway done... whew.. man.. when I finailly get the time to just attack this and edit it all into something that I like, it'll be a masterpeice of poetry... yeah.. I'll proabbly just end up with one huge book of poetry that everyone will hate.. LoL.. ahhh... to be famous when you're dead... what a joke... I'll have kids reading this crap that no one wants to now.. these antilogical rhythms that I dispose of on paper... Where do they all belong?

Anyways... I'm at odds about this.. I feel like I should share this blog with people.. but I don't know if I really want all these people to see these secrets... All these heartfelt feelings about life, love and my little bubble of reality... the songs that make up the soundtrack of my life, the dreams that I hold onto... I dont know.. I feel secure in knowing that no one knows about this little secret of mine.. and if you are reading this.. You just stumbled across it in randomness.. and maybe it was meant to be... My life is interesting.. at least to me.. I always felt like my life was a movie.. like I'm the forrest gump of the music industry... I've met so many people.. I'm like nine degrees from superstardom... ::sigh:: they say it's who you know, right?
You make your own. So make it. I can't seem to make mine... lol.. so I guess I have to know someone..

I've been seeing people publish these weblogs in books.. now I thought that was a funny thought.. like someone would want to buy something like this.. sure I have some great stories.. but not bookworthy.. I mean hell.. have you even seen my poetry? Umm.. ok maybe you havent...

http://www.pathetic.org/library.php?i_memberid=2646

Thats the link to my poetry site.. since I'm sure you wanna see what a madman puts on paper...

If I finish it by christmas.. I'd consider it a christmas present.. at least when I'm done posting all the old stuff...

Well.. have a good day.. Mine's still just starting...

Strangers in a strange land... that’s about how I could describe it.. Living alone in a strange world...

A world I thought I used to know... a world of honesty...
but now... now it's just all lies... Lies, I tell you...
You're living a lie... but I'm sure you already knew that.
I hope.
I hope in lies... I dream in lies... these things that I tell myself everyday…

Just to be optimistic.

Maybe lies are good.. Maybe..
they help you forget the past..
Here in lies..
to your grave.. you take honesty..
to your life, you bear travesty..

to all this.. I shudder to think of honesty..

and yet...

I can be honest with myself.
Over all this.. Over this nightmare of middle age nothingness..
Over this planet.. brimming over it's cup of jealous rage...

Over the lies.
Over the honesty..
Walking the fine line between sanity and Christianity..

I knew once.. all the answers.. boiled down in a Childs brain..
but now..? now it's just confusion.

The heart of a poet.. the mind of a lunatic
The failing mental health that’s making me sick...

Dealt with the party demons and the straight edge crack-heads
and all the girls who slept in so many of my beds..

Dealt with self doubt and the betrayal of family and friends..
and wondering how long this until it all finally ends..

All these lies.. petty and forgotten.. all the memories, some ripe, some rotten..
and you look around to what goes around comes around has gotten..

Well now... whats been up?

Not much on my front.. I've started dating a girl.. She's a real sweetheart...
We've been talking now for about 3 months online.. this last weekend we decided to go shoot some pool and hang out...

So we hung out all night.. and it was awesome.. No stress.. No expectations...it was nice for a change...
It was like a date.. but it wasent... So needless to say... I wanted us to be friends.. since since we first met..I was under the impression she was a lesbian.. this is the second woman I've run into that said they were a lesbian.. yet.. turned out to like guys.. I guess it's in there somewhere.. they just need the right person to bring it out... I wonder if women have this problem often....Anyways..

So we end up hanging out till like 4 in the morning.. She has off the next day, but I was getting tired.. not to mention feeling a bit of sexual tention.. and that didnt make me feel right..considering she was my friend and all...but being the first time I met her.. I figured it would pass in time..

On the way out the door.. She went for the hug.. I wanted a huh. so I was pleased.. she gave a good one too.. I kinda backed off on the killer hug that I usually give.. since.. after all there was attraction.. just not a real emotion... but anyways.. So she leaves.. and I walk on clouds..

So skip to the next day..

We start talking online.. mainly about the fun we had, how we got along.. and I jokingly said.. Well too bad you don't like guys, cuz I think your attractive... and she responded with the fact that she thought I was attractive and that there might be that possibility for us to hook up...

I was a little taken back by it.. hence I wanted a new friend.. not just another ex...So I didnt sleep that whole night before after pool.. I just couldnt... I laid down.. tried my hardest for an hour or so.. then got up.. and made a cup of coffee..Spent most of the night on xbox live..
So early in the morning.. she hops online.. I'm all coffee cracked out.. feeling all funny inside..
She comes over after she wakes up and cooks dinner.. so around 5pm she shows up... I'm not tired..yet..
I ask her about some movies she's seen.. and find out she's never seen Requiem for a dream.. So I just had to turn her on to that one.. yah know? So we watch it.. I get misty, as does she during the whole Goldfarb living alone part.. and her friends crying on the bench gets me again... I swear.. Some movies just jab me right in the heart and fuckin kill me.. anywho..
Cut to the point... right?
So after that and Dreamcatcher (waste of time).. I tell her I'm gonna lay down cuz my back was killing me in this black computer chair I own.. I lay down.. and she proceeds to come snuggle with me...
Now.. anyone who knows me.. this is foreplay to me... honestly.. but taken aback by the whole lesbian thing.. I didnt want to push for anything sexual.. more on the lines of let her choose what she wants..
I'm not here to convert..
Snuggling with her was awesome.. I got butterflies, saw flashes of light.. hell.. even got light headed...felt like I was back in highschool... being that close to someone is precious to me.. like being a little kid all over again... nothing sexual about it really.. just a warm place inside that few ever tap.
So I'm really floating on clouds now.. and we end up kissing.. lightly at first.. since I dont wanna scare her.. but she starts running her hands all over me.. and I just can't deal with it after that.. So I really started getting horny.. but I didnt want to have sex with her.. it didnt feel like the right time.. plus.. I didnt want her to think I was just out for a piece of tail. So I end up going down on her.. and messing around.. turns out I make her cum twice.. which she said, has never happend to her from a guy... she's floating..
Ok.. now I'm not the smartest man.. nor the dumbest.. but I've herd this one alot.. and I know for fact that I can't be the great man all the time.. but hey.. I'll take it for face value as a compliment..thats all you can do.. I jokingly tell her she's been with the wrong men.. her response? 'Apparently so'...
So we snuggle and cuddle until she has to go.. at like 5am.. and by this point.. I am tired as hell, my eyes were all crossing.. it was bad...but she left, kiss goodbye and off into the night.
as for me.. I stayed up till about 7am... bullshitting.. when I should have been here writing..but honestly.. it's nothing like changing.. but it is slightly altering... no more bitching about being alone..
Anywho.. So next night, we both can't do anything... which is understandable.. plus.. I'm beat..
Skip to last night...
We hung out.. started messing around.. I asked her to be my girlfriend.. and we had sex.. and it was good too... which really means alot to me since I hate to meet someone really cool.. only to find out they suck in bed. So it was like doubly whammy... not to mention.. she's a big fan of doggiestyle.. which blew my mind for someone who doesnt like guys to like that.. but anywho..
So skip to tonight...
She asks me to come over.. and hang out...
I'm down.. might as well.. that way, I'd get to meet her Ex and her mom (who both live with her) not to mention her two neices.. it was all good and dandy.. Until the ex got home from work..
Now I don't have a problem with this situation.. other than the awkwardness of the whole thing.. I mean they basically share a two bedroom house with three rooms..(I think) it might just be two.. and there's 5 people living there... tight squeeze... but it's really the ex.. Since me and her started dating the ex had a person.. but they just broke up.. So I dunno.. it's hard to say whats going to happen.. she might just go back to being with my girl...
Tonight hanging out with them together was strange.. little inside jokes split between them, whispers, and a few odd glances made me wonder how this is going to go.. I've been in this boat before with a lesbian friend.. and I know how picky they can be when it comes to someone who makes them happy.

My friend ricky sez this sounds like 3way action in the future.. I acually disagree.. I don't find her ex attractive.. I mean hell, anyone else would.. but I dont.. just cuz I know she's been with my girl.. like some mental block about thinking she's sexy... I think it's mainly cuz I can see underneath to a lair of bitchiness.. not to mention the stories that my girl told me about her...

I just hope this whole thing doesnt just blow up in my face... :: crossing fingers ::

Wish me luck... I'm going in for the report... and hey... at least it'll help my writing..

Fun stuff I found...

http://www.myspace.com/

A cool site kinda like friendster.. but hell of alot faster and cooler... worth a little time...

Http://Www.bangme.net/

A hot or not spinoff.. With alot of cool people...

http://www.zfilter.com/

A huge link website.. it had tons of cool sites...

Penis.. the word of the day...
This came up in conversation.. figured I'd share it with of you who needed a laugh..

DI (12:09:24 PM): My mom and Hitler (nickname for my step dad) and taken my nephews Lucus who's 5 and Xavier who just turned 6 but was 5 at the time, to the store one day. Well, the boys were sitting in the backseat having a conversation about privates as they call em. My mom said they were talking all seriously so she didn't wanna laugh. Well, Xavier said that girls didn't have privates and Lucas said they did, well Xavier said no they didn't again and Lucas goes 'Yes they do, there's are fuzzy' and then I guess that was the end of the conversation, my mom said her and Ron looked at each other just in kinda shock and she was trying not to laugh cause he had said it so seriously.
Dankmojojojo (12:10:51 PM): lol
DI (12:10:54 PM): Or
DI (12:11:06 PM): Or one day Xavier was over here and he was playing with Madison on the floor. She had her plastic piggy bank pig and was like psss, he peed on you Xavie, and Xavier was like no he didn't! And Maddie again said he did and Xavier was like no he didn't Maddie, he can't cause he doesn't have a penis! All serious, okay I just started cracking up and when my brother got here to get him my sister was like you should've heard what your son said today. And my brother was like what? Penis?
DI (12:11:58 PM): I guess for awhile that was his favorite word, my brother said he had his friends over one night for there one game they play and Xavier just popped up from behind the chair and was like penis all casually. His girlfriend said she about dyed laughing but my brother was just like what? It's not funny

I happen to keep two other webjournals.. and well.. that's become a major pain in my ass.. I'm really just going to stick with this one.. Since no one really knows about this one, nor does anyone read it..

I've been getting alot of feedback from some of my friends about them... mainly for my subject on women.. it seems that alot of the females... Who arn't dating me...seem for me to have a problem with me talking about my feelings about other women... and it's caused me alot of stress...so I'm taking a little break from all that...

Well.. good news.. I ended up dating a new girl.. crazy thing is.. She's a lesbian... We've been talking for about 4 months now.. and we had set up to meet a couple of weeks ago, but something happend and we didnt get to hang out...I wasent even stressing it.. mainly since I was just calling it friendship..but I liked her just from talking to her... Well.. we finally got the balls and set a time to hang out.. and just shoot pool.
It was a little awkward.. I'll say that much...but it was really laid back... I had a blast.. We shot pool and listenend to a shitty band.. I had fun...the only really uncomfortable moment was at about 4am, as she was leaving.. she gave me a hug... and it was nice.. I wasent giving it my all.. since after all.. I was still considering her a friend.. I was attracted to her off the bat.. just from shooting pool...
So when she got home, we started talking.. A long story short, I mentioned that I was attracted to her in a more than friendship kinda way.. but then, she confessed having those same feelings..I was stoked, since she's cute, funny, and smart... I was stoked just being her friend.. and still am..
So, the next night she came over.. We watched a couple of movies.. Requiem for a dream being the first.. I cried a little.. the part with Ms. Goldfarb talking about living alone... it's enevitable.. it'll get you misty too.. then we watched Dreamcatcher.. which I was not impressed...but considering I hadent slept in like 48 hours, I was a little cynical..
I look over to the bed.. and she's like, Do you wanna lay down?.. and of course, I'm not thinking about her joining me like that.. but sure enuff, as I snuggle up in the bed.. she walks over and cozys up next to me... she even ends up with the wall and my fav pillow.. lol.. I got butterflies... even saw colors behind my eyes.. cuddling like that just warmed me inside.. made my heart come up into my throat..it felt sooo peaceful...We kissed.. a little awkward at first, but we soon made it work...we ended up going alot farther
as the morning wore on, and next thing we looked up and it was 4am... She had to work in the morning..and I felt horrible for keeping her up that late... I didnt even try to go farther than a little oral.. since I knew that would have taken us deep into the morning hours...besides.. I didnt want her to turn out to be a Tory.. So with a couple of kisses and huggs, I sent her off home...smelling of sex and smiling..
She confessed that no other guy (she's been with two) has ever made her cum... (trying to be sweet?)

Ok.. she left.. It was strange.. I felt connected to her.. apart from just sharing fuids.. I thought she was adorable... I told her so many times.. she got even prettier when she let her hair down and snuggled with me.. I just stared into her eyes and I could feel my heart sink... I just wanted to make her happy.. I was laughing to myself why I was going down on her.. I thought that I had to stand up for men everywhere with this.. I didnt want her going back to her Lesbian brotherhood and telling them that Aaron the hetro couldnt make her cum... So I took pride.. I even ended up making her scream there the second time... which I thought was awesome... made me want her all the more.. I really lusted after her when she came.. it was undescribable...and she has the softest skin...and the cutest smile.. Mmmm... I could sing her praises all day long... I only hope she's normal... 1 wish down, 2 to go.

Ok.. So we talked today.. I ended up spending most of the day in bed.. from like 8am till 10pm.. I needed the sleep, I felt like a bum since I didnt get outta bed.. but I really needed to catch up on that since I'd been up 48 hours..speaking of 48 hours... My sleep is all kinds of fucked...still... and Im trying to figure it out..I think it has alot to do with stress.. cuz I've been stressed out alot latly.. worried about what Im gonna do.. the snow's comming and I'm still stuck in a summer resort town.. So right now.. I'm going to bust my ass for a while... work my nuts off until I get a good job, car back in order.. and then maybe next winter go back up to snowshoe..

I'm hoping to go up to Snowshoe this winter.. but I dunno... it'll depend on the car situation.. which I need to solve like a motherfucker.. since I'm really screwing myself sitting down here this winter..

I dunno... We'll see how life goes.. I know it's gonna crawl by this winter.. since I'm stuck in suckville with nothing to do... So I have to get my ass in motion, or get screwed!

Damn the world...more like Damn the world for me being in it... I hope that I can solve these problems.. or else I'll be sitting here a year from now saying the same thing..

and nobody wants that.

I used to love... now I just try to forget...
I used to live.. not it's just lifelong regret...

Needless to say.. Im feeling *Blah*...and Im sure you dont wanna read this crap.
I don't blame you... I don't wanna write it.. but I figure it's better to get it out than just bullshit and keep it in.

I'm in serious doubts about myself... I'm in doubts that I will ever truly find someone I can love.
So... I have decided to just say fuck love. What is love? It's just pain in waiting.. and I'm not waiting anymore.

All love has ever brought me... is misery. I say this all the time, I know.. but it's true.. everytime I bend my whims to someone else, I end up broken.. half the man I was.. and now... I feel even less.. like I've just been breaking off small pieces of myself and giving them away.

I used to care about how other people felt.. I used to be that nice guy that got walked over...
Fuck that. It'll just leave you feeling like someone's personal doormat. I shal never bend in the wind of love again.
The sooner I figure that out, the better off I'll be.
I could spend the rest of my life alone and be happy.. knowing that at least I might be alone, but I won't stand to be used just for my company.. ever again.

I'm a lover... so I'll love myself.. I'll love what I do.. I'll love my life.
but I wont put my heart on a plate to be feasted upon then cast aside when they've had their fill..
I'm not your salad bar of love, I'm not your never ending bag soft kisses.. I'm not yours.
So the sooner I get over this mental anguish I've become, the sooner I can get on with my lfie and just figure out what the fuck I am supposed to do with my life.

When I was a child.. I dreamt I was to do great things.. Maybe it was me trying to run from my isignifigant life...Maybe I was running in dreams to hide the pain I'd known....I even thought I was to be the next son of god... but I figured they would lock me up... I only admitted this to one person in my life...but I figured they'd pick my brain until I was deemed unnacceptable for public consumption... I've skated around lockdown for most of my life... I've lied and cheated my way into a job.. Into a life.. but I didn't escape unscathed..I've got my own mental baggage that I tow around with me...


Love has always hunted me down.. Love has always been there to tragically abuse me...to molest me into submission...

I'm sure your wondering back to that comment I made about thinking I was the son of god... I know I think about it sometimes...and thank god it never came true...
I could never lead all these people to salvation.. I could never help the world... I thought once I could.. I thought once I could help people.. but I can't even help myself.

Maybe those are the best prophets.. the one's who can see the world for what it needs to be.. but yet... can't do a thing to save their own. I could tell you the right things you need to do in your life.. but as for my own.. it's a tragic downward spiral that only seems to bring other's pain when I come in contact with them.

Why I'm sitting here and posting this.. I don't know.. I don't care either.. these are my personal rambles... I don't care if you judge me.. odds are.. you're a face in a billion.. so what, you might think I'm crazy, I'm not of this earth.. but I'm not. I'm not your friend.. I'm not your lover... I'm this random person you just bumped into on the net..
and...
You don't own me.
I don't even own myself.

I don't care what happens to this planet of consumers... We're destined to fail. I've seen it in my dreams.. and those are the only things that matter to me...

Ugh... It's been 6 hours... I sould be feeling better right? Nope... Feel worse..
I feel like I'm making a mistake choosing to be alone.. but in my heart of hearts.. I feel like it's not right.. So what am I to do? Go back on my choice? Nope.. can't do that.. Suck it up? Yep.

I've come to the conclusion that maybe.. just maybe.. I'm better off alone... like.. I havent found someone who's compatible with me... I have in the past.. and those have led to some of my most fatal of heartbreaks.. but still.. I was happy while it lasted.. right?

Grrr... I think fate is just having a fun time with me now.. I'm so easy of a pushover.. you whisper some kind words in my ear and follow that up with some snuggling and I can't think straight... but then give me a week to think about it.. and I just demoish any chance I had of being with someone.. It's like I'm pre-programmed to self destruct... thats me.. the love suicide bomber.. Aaron... psycho nutcase with an oral fixation and a tendency to pick the wrong women...

Fuck me.. speak of the devil.. well.. I should go now.. I need to get my head straight..

that should take.. Oh.. I dunno... Forever?

Thanksgiving update...

Yeah, Im sure you wanna know.. right?

Well thanksgiving this read was depressing.. I come from a somewhat large family.. and it reminds me of a forgotten language.. There were only three of us this thanksgiving.. the smallest amount I've had familywise ever... but it was just me, my grandfather and grandmother... It was quaint.. depressing, but quaint.. the food was great... she didnt overcook the turkey like usual.. and everything was lovly.. but to be honest, I wasent even hungry at that time.. I ended up finishing off the white meat the next day tho.. I think I ate like 5 meals the next day.. like my mind finally kicked in that it was thanksgiving.. so I ate like a pig.. but I'm back to normal now tho... thank god.. or else I would have gained like 20 lbs...

Speaking of 20lbs.. I need to lose about 60lbs... I think I should just go back on atkins until christmas, then back on it after newyears... I dunno.. we'll see...

Ummm.. What else?

I've been spending alot of time on Bangme.net... I'd suggest it, if you have alot of freetime on your hands..
otherwise, meet people in real life! lol.. at least you won't meet your soul mate and have to deal with a 5 thousand mile long distance relationship... well.. even if you do.. good luck.

Jobwise.. I start my hunt today.. I'm going into an interview this afternoon for a temp agency.. proabbly another scam.. but fuck it at this point.. it's hard to get a barjob around here now that it's winter.. and I sure as hell dont want to work at the beach... fuck me.. I should proabbly just try and go back to ruby tuesdays... at least its just right down the road.. but we'll see what this week has to offer... maybe some good luck..doubtful tho.

Deoression has really been racking me latly.. Depressed about meeting new people who turn out defective, new people who go psycho.. new people in general.. I'm just uninspired by people these days.. I think Tory tainted me when it comes to people with so much in common with me.. after seeing how different she really was, It kinda killjoy'ed me.. like.. I could meet my soulmate and watch them turn into a bastard... arg!

Ok.. I'm done with this for a while again..

You know what I've realized? I havent been writing much.. mainly because I feel like.. well.. only certain people read this... and that when I'm in a relationship.. I dont want to write about it because, well.. if they are web savy.. they will find it..I wont be able to harbor my fears in private.. they will know my weakness or what's bugging me.. even if it happens to be them...

I been doing some small projects with writing tho.. I made a self-help list for people who don't know how to make internet friends... LoL.. since one of my friends said she needed to find some new friends..

Ugh... You know.. I really used to think people sought out to read about other people's lives..until I started reading other people's blogs.. and to be honest.. it's drab.. It's a nation of people sitting around documenting a life that most people dont have any intrest in... I could only see the loves of my life or my best friends browsing over this.. I don't expect to ever get any people from out of my circle in here..
besides.. who wants to know about the lost thoughts I have? Fuck.. they are lost for a reason, yah know?

So anywho...

I've been busy.. I'd met a new girl, Jeane.. she's a sweetheart really.. but she came on really strong at first.. and then proceeded to flip out on me.. I blame myself for not having 'the talk' right off the bat... but she was great in the seduction department... speaking of department.. well.. I dumped her.. I think it had alot to do with the fact that she has a daughter... and living with moms.. no car.. no job... and alot of free time.. You should see the size of this girls online blog... I was astounded..
Now I should be interested in someone who knows so much about the internet.. Hell.. she even sports a StrongBad sweatshirt... that was a hint.. but that was all cool with me.. I thought she was hella cool.. snuggly too.. but honestly.. I was a little un-nerved.. mainly since we ended up sleeping together the first night we met.... I havent been with someone in a while that I enjoyed.. so I crumbled when we started snuggling.. and one thing ended up being another after dry humping for 2 hours... It was nice.. I even had butterflies...
The next day we're talking on line. and she freaks out... I didnt provoke it or anything, but she starts a five page speech with that I should get out now before I realize how crazy she is and how that most don't make it past the first month... Umm.. yeah... So I try and grin and bear it.. Hell.. in reality, thats usually what I say... but she keeps at it as an underlying tone to the conversations to be.. and I think about it a couple of nights.. all the while, she's needling me to meet her 14 month old daughter.. and her mom... I paniced.. I acted like I was sick.. geezus, what am I 14, again? So tonight, I just broke down and broke up with her under the whole guise of It's not you, it's me.. You deserve better... and she came back with a pretty sensible response... and we talked for a while more and I tried to move it into the friendzone.. which she was cool with "We'll just won't have sex, fine!" ... until later... She kept chaging her name on MSN... I hate men/etc to Buddies, Pal's Amigos, fine!...so at this point I was like.. alright.. here it comes..
So she popps offline.. so sez.. and then pops back up in MSN and sends me a link to her blog... It was long... and kinda understandable.. a rant much like mine... except alot less spiteful..
I think I'm just running from love... but someone who's like she is proabbly bad for me. She's very jealous.. even flipped out on me for my comments to other women on Bangme.net.. which really.. is kinda funny since its not like I plan on meeting anyone... or at least I wasent.. but then again.. I can't blame her.. I'd proabbly get offended it my lover was talking shit to other guys.. but I'm not the jealous type.. I've been screwed over too many times to even get mad at a girl for hitting on someone else.. It's not like I should be jealous.. if she's shady enough to cheat on me, might as well get it over and done with, instead of wasting all that time trying to fall in love... ugh... I guess it all falls down to the usual trust issues..but then again, I dunno what the hell Im thinking trying to even score with a woman... cuz the fact I have all this free time.. I should be looking for a better job instead of putzing around with some internet ho's...
Speaking of internet ho's..I haven't herd shit from Tory... Well she's fallen off the planet... and I'm happy of that fact... I dont have to hear her drab stories of how much she hates work, or what her mom and sis are bitching about to her... I mean I offered to be there to talk to.. but shit.. not if it's gonna be bitching and moaning everytime... So negative..She did try to call me on thanksgiving.. but I was sleeping...

Speaking of sleep.. My sleeps been alllll kinds of fucked up... Going to bed at noon, sleeping till 11 or midnight... Ugh.. all fucked up.. finally when I wake up at 10am.. and get used to it.. I end up sleeping from 9 till midnight and waking up and not being able to sleep.. ugh... Im all kinds of messed up.. I've really been over trying to get normal sleep.. my body just wakes me up.. I'll stay up 28 hours just to sleep normal only to have my schedule right it's wrongs the next day with exaughstion... Bleh.

Lets see.. what else?